If You’re Not The One

If you’re not the one, why does my soul feel glad today?
If you’re not the one, then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine, then why does your heart return my call?
If you are not mine, would I have the strength to stand at all?

I never know what the future brings
But I know you’re here with me now
We’ll make it through and I hope
You are the one I share my life with

I don’t wanna run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you, then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there anyway that I can stay in your arms?

If I don’t need you, then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don’t need you, then why does your name resound in my head?
If you’re not for me, then why does this distance name my life?
If you’re not for me, then why do I dream of you as my wife?

I don’t know why you’re so far away
But I know that this much is true
We’ll make it through and I hope
You are the one I share my life with

And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray that you’re the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life

I don’t wanna run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you, then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there anyway that I can stay in your arms?

‘Cause I miss your body and soul so strong
That it takes my breath away
And I breath you into my heart
And I pray for the strength to stand today

‘Cause I love you whether it’s wrong or right
And though I can’t be with you tonight
And though my heart is by your side

I don’t wanna run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you, then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there anyway that I can stay in your arms?

Holiday Again

Take a dose of vitamin D. Go out, take a walk at the beach, see beautiful sceneries, breathe fresh air, smile at people you meet, or just simply be with nature. It’s your day.. Happy holiday, HERO!

Ang aga kong dumayo sa beach. Naglalakad lang sa tabing-dagat. Iyong mga kasabayan ko, mga babaeng buntis. And I was like,”nakaka-OP huh.” Hehe.

Just kidding. I had planned yesterday to sit here at the dike and watch the sunset. Pero umulan, kaya bumabawi ako ngayon.

Inumaga ako ng gising, di ko na naabutan si Sunrise. So naglakad lang ako sa seashore, jogged a few and nagmasid sa paligid.

Oh, kahapon pala, merong napakagandang rainbow. And I know now who my rainbow is. HE colors my world. Char lang. HAHA.

Now I am sitting here, meditating and thanking God for another day in my life.

I was like shouting “Lord, ang sarap mabuhay. Tenkyuuuu talaga!”.

Love life. 🙂

Holiday. Holidates.

Be with people who makes you laugh. Because a good laugh once in a while, is equivalent to a good life that lasts a long time. Goodnight.

An fb status. 21Aug2014

It was a holiday in celebration of Ninoy Aquino Day. I was invited by Brigitte to attend her daughter’s 1st birthday, Baby Mia Ciara at the WOWAP Area. We had a mouthful of food, drinks and desserts. Nomnom!

After a lot of chitchat and feeling full, we then went to watch Eduardo played volleyball at the boulevard area. I had fun watching them played so well. Eduardo’s team lost but Grace and I had fun cheering for them.

Then, Vemjane came and joined us. We had a ride going to the end of the boulevard while looking for a nicer place to dine. I was riding a bicycle. So, alam na. It added more happiness to me. Teehee.

Then, Jose and Rudolph came. We proceeded to Maricel’s store where Roselyn, Cory Nee, Charmagne and Ldyl0ne were also having their dinner.

A minute later, Neythan arrived.

We chatted, laughed, took pictures and ate. Remembering the good times we’ve had when we were still in high school. Once again, strengthening the bond.

It was a refreshing experience for me seeing how my friends have matured and grown-up through the years yet stayed all the same.

I’m feeling so blessed with beautiful people around me.

God had gifted me with amazing pair of eyes. He allows me to see greater things beyond every situation, great people beyond ordinary faces and His graces under pressure.

I must have become better to realize all these things. I must have done something good that I deserve His graces. I must have been very friendly, I have these persons in my life.

That is all because I have an amazing GOD. 🙂

Dance like the photos not being tagged. Love like you’ve never been unfriended. Sing like nobody’s following. Share like you care. And do it all like it wont end up on Youtube!

>_<

Chubby Me?

I’m maybe chubby. Not because I eat a LOT, but because I cooked so0o GOOD. HAHA.

Who wants some chicken AFRAIDtada?? Anyone?? Hehe.

For my bro Evan’s advance birthday celebration. 😀

Pain in my Heart

Here I am alone in this empty room
And let my mind just fly you to the end
Thoughts of you still linger in my memory
Wondering why my life is not that fair
I could still recall Those memories of you
The joy and all your laughter
The love thast we’ve been through
Oh, I can’t believe you’re gone
Oh, no
Talkin’ to myself for no reasons I could find
Findin’ out why everything went wrong
Tears falling down my cheeks that
I’ve been trying to hold
It doesn’t know if I could still go on
I wanted you to stay
The tears begin to show
You said you cared for me
But then you had to go
And now I know you’re gone

But I don’t want to remember
The things (we used to do/that we’ve been Through)
And all the things that remind me of you
I don’t want to hear the songs
The songs we used to sing
‘coz I don’t wanna feel the pain in my heart

I just can’t believe you’re gone
No, no…
I don’t wanna feel
Yeah, I don’t wanna feel the pain in my heart
I don’t wanna feel, don’t know what went
wrong
Oohh…

..someone special sent me a song recorded via voiced mail. Sa chorus po ng kantang ito, something goes like “But I don’t want to remember….”. My favorite line in this song. At ako’y kinilig. Haha. Thanks Jelai. LOL, lots of love. :*

WINSDAY

Character cannot be developed in ease and quiet. Only through experience of trial and suffering can the soul be strengthened, ambition inspired, and success achieved. — Helen Keller

Go for gold. Go for GOD! ^^,

Happy Birthday!

Dear Momi Velle,

If you think I forgot you on your birthday? Well then, think again. Hehe

Kumusta ka na? Hindi na tayo nagkakausap lately. Busy ka masyado. Nahiya naman ako sa schedule mo..

Ako, I’m fine kahit di mo tinatanong. Medyo nagtatampo lang ako ng konti. Kasi naman, sumobra ata iyong kulitan natin, napahiya tuloy ako sa ‘yo. Pasensya na. Masyado akong hyper kasi, ganito siguro pag inlove. Me ganun?Haha.

I missed you. I missed us, our kulitan and chikahan. Our walks sa Boulevard, Mr. Sunset, si #seenzoned, si crush, at lahat ng notifications ko na nangagaling sa iyo. 😦

Isang “HOY NICK!” lang naman ang hinihintay ko sa iyo, kapag nangyari iyon, ok na ako. Maghihintay ako. If that time comes, saka mo mababasa to sulat ko sa iyo. Kung hindi, ok lang din. Alam ko namang marami ka pang mga kaibigan bukod sa akin. Mas mapapasaya ka nila. Hindi tulad kong matampuhin at maraming kaepalan sa buhay. Joke joke.

Basta, I am always here for you. Kahit hindi man ako ang unang taong tatawagin mo pag nangangailangan ka, darating pa rin ako para b-um-ack-up sa iyo.

I lab u friend. God bless you more. Happy birthday. Cheers!

Always here,
NICK

ps. Kapag binabasa mo na ito ngayon, congratz, ok na us. 🙂

Feeling Thankful

I borrowed a bike from our neighbor, Nong Johnrey. Abusive na akong masyado. Noong biyernes, humiram din ako ng bisekleta niya. I’m dying to own a bike na. Sana pagbigyan ako ni Lord.

I went to my Nanay’s house riding a bicycle. Usap-usap tungkol sa buhay at kahirapan, ganun. hehe. We talked about our plans and just about anything. I ate dinner there and then, I went home. How I missed my old lady.

For the first time, nasubukan kong magbisekleta sa highway. Iyong maraming sasakyang bumibiyahe. Ganoon pala iyong feeling. Nakakatakot na nakaka-excite. Wooh! Wattafeeling.

I was just biking freely, never knowing kung saan ako dadalhin ng mga paa ko. Hanggang nakarating ako sa may City Hall. There, I jot down all the vacant positions I am qualified. Magpapasa ako ng application letters sa Friday.

Tumuloy na rin ako sa simbahan since malapit lang naman iyon sa City Hall. Sarado na kaya doon na lang ako sa harap huminto. I uttered a simple prayer of thanks for renewed hope and aspiration. I thank God for He had given me a great day today and always.

I preceded to the City Boulevard. I was just biking, with feelings. Iyong feel na feel ko iyong moment na malaya ako. Nakaka-relax sa loob. You are lost in the world. Pansamantala, panandalian.

 

hindi masyadong blurred noh? 😉

I also took a photo habang sumasakay sa bisekleta. I got one hand on the wheel while the other was holding my phone. I took a picture on top of a running vehicle. I’m so feeling it. Weird nga daw ako.haha. (^ photo above)

 

This day, I felt so blessed and happy despite the circumstances na nangyayari sa paligid. I may have been numb of the pain, heartaches and failures sa buhay ko.

Naaaah! Of course, I am not that numb, I can still feel that aching feeling. But you know what, life’s too short to waste on those things that don’t really matter at all. Life’s too precious to be wasted upon.

I just choose to believe that something’s good is about to come. The best is yet to come.

Be patient. Be happy. Be free. Believe in God’s plans.

Future Plans and Goals

Here’s an impromptu lists of my future plans and goals in my complicated life. Oh yeah!

I was sweeping the floor when I got to think about these things. For future references. I just wanna make sure that I would be able to do things when I thought I couldn’t. I’m going out of my comfort zone quick.

Naaaah! I wish I could achieve all these. Before this would take long, so yeah, here’s my list.

1. Take a long ride. Bicycle ride that is. I wish I could own one on the soonest time possible. I really wanna try a long bicycle ride. Just me alone. I would want to take pictures and just get lost in track. No worries and no technologies. I want to go back in time. I wish I really know what I am wishing for.

2. To own a camera. I’m no wishing for a DSLR. I know my capacities. I can’t afford one, perhaps in the future’s future. No kidding. I just need a very useful camera to capture real and wonderful photos. If I want to achieve my no. 1 goal, I got to have a camera, for documentary purposes. Picture perfect.

3. To join an organization. I want to join an organization which shall embody my beliefs and philosophies in life. I want to share my ideas and insights. And I want to help and to be an inspiration. So, I guess, SINGLES FOR CHRIST is a very good option.

4. To finish a novel. I am writing a novel about young love and sorts which stars Emerald, Vincent and Brent. The other parts were already posted here. Lavender Lace and Fall for Me. I know it’s so corny. But hey, we are all hopeless romantic. I know anyone could relate to it.
I am up to the 4th chapter, and my target is 12. So, I hope I’d be more inspired to finish it since time won’t allow me. Aww.

5. To post an inspirational stories on FB. I’m no good at posting selfie pictures but I’m into posting good quotes and inspirational words. So, I planned on making short stories with pictures in it and have it posted on my album. Original stories that would somehow touch other people’s lives. About God, love, hope, and life. TOUCHING LIVES.

6. To post more often on my blog. I have lots of pending stories to share. I am busy with work and I have to see to it that I’d be able to spend time putting some sense into this blog of mine. Hence, this post today. HEHE. I’m so serious. OMG.

7. To improve my working career. I really do wish that I’d be able to achieve what I’d been wishing for the longest time with regards to my job. I just hope before this years ends. Pretty, pretty please Lord?..

8. To avail of the accreditation program and get a college diploma. A university here is offering an accreditation program for undergrads like me whose job is related with BS Administration, Criminology, etc.. But I am yet to wait for next year before I am qualified. I have to be 25 years old. If that happens, I’d be able to get a diploma, and perhaps, I could enroll a second course. I am planning to enroll a CPE class. I want to teach. Yes.

9. Take my family to a vacation escapade. I want to take them to somewhere we could enjoy ourselves. No problems and worries. Just pure bonding and fun-having adventure. I am planning to take them to an out of town trip. Family bonding.

10. Have a thanksgiving party for kids. I so love kids especially now that I already two nieces and bunch of little cousins. I also loved to cook. Years ago, I planned of doing a feeding program here in our community for those unfortunate kids who hadn’t tried eating at Jollibee. But I am not that rich to afford a Jolly party, so I’m going to cook for them. I’m having this soon if I’ll get my no. 7 goal. With hopes high.

We all have goals in our lives. And it’s best if we take a braver step closer in making it come true. I took a step by putting it into words. Because if not, it will only be an idea in my mind that would soon be forgotten…

I’m going to update anytime soon whenever whichever any from this list be done.

With prayers offered and fingers crossed. Aja! 🙂